Nervous day...

   Today Steve goes for his yearly MRI. It takes 3 hrs plus prep etc for the whole MRI. He has to be iv'd half way through to do the dye contrast. Makes a long 3 plus hrs of me sitting there..but even harder on Steve as he has to be in the machine. He'll take a medicine before it to help him relax but it's not been a success before so they are trying a higher dose today.
  I wish I could take some of the anxiety away for him. He stresses for weeks before the appointment and the day of the appointment it's almost like he could jump out of his skin. I always feel bad for him because I really do not know how he feels.
  Even though I worry about today's appointment mainly because of Steve's anxiety I worry more about the appointment on the 19th because at that appointment his Dr will tell us how his MS is going, how it has progressed or stayed the same and give us some answers for the horrible headaches and leg cramps that are more frequent now.
  Steve always worries too about the financial side and they didn't help any when they called yesterday to remind us to have "$864 dollars to get into the MRI". We have it covered but it still stresses Steve out because he feels we are constantly paying medical bills. I keep telling him to see the light at the end of the tunnel...the medical bills are so much because he was trying to get diagnosed a year ago, that he had a hospital stay etc and that hopefully now that we have answers and a name to the problem we can move forward with no hospital stays etc. But it always eats away at him that we have to pay out so much.
   I can say some in the support situation has improved somewhat on his family's  side but all one can do is hang in there and hope that people take a hard look at the situation and themselves and keep moving forward.
  Kaya is excited to spend the afternoon with her Uncle lol They are two peas in a pod. :)

  Update: Scan went really well :) Valium 10mg and a new style of face mask worked miracles! He even slept on the table lol Much nicer than it was when he went last time :) :)